I love being Jewish….
There, I’ve put it out there.
But really it’s true. And it’s so true that I really feel deep inside that I have to embrace my Jewish life ever closer to me. I hate that I fell away, that I am so far away from it. I want to be closer and while I still feel so embraced by Gd, I still feel that my foot is still on those first few rungs of the ladder. My very own Jacob’s ladder.
But it’s still on there. And I know I’ll climb up it again simply because of sheer will and determination. I just feel that fire inside and as I grow ever closer to my return.
I really don’t even know that my return will ever be complete but I know that it’s a road I never want to stop following.
And Baruch HaShem, it’s one I never have to STOP following.